It was intimate and it was done in the secret place. It was no longer about the three of us. It wasn't about if he said yes or not. He required me to be face down and on my knees. I was finally positioned. It was just between God and me. It wasn’t a threesome, although God wanted us to do it together. He wanted a yes. I had finally come into a place of complete surrender. I was ready to conceive the dream of God.
God has prophetic dreams for you and your generations. He had chosen to impregnate mine in the lining of my marriage. It was fertile ground. It was the place where he would do his greatest work. He had already planted the seeds- "you are a key factor in breaking this spirit of death and this false religion and when you get this place in me you will be a major voice, whole families will come out of your loins, it is not an accident the family you were born into and you are going to bring them life because I am life".
It was time to push. He allowed only enough pressure that I wouldn't die, although at times, I felt like I would.
God is not trying to kill you but he is trying to get you out the way. He is trying to create an image on the inside of you of him. He is trying to get you to respond the way he would respond. I could no longer say what I wanted to say and do what I wanted to do. I was carrying something big. I was giving birth to the dream of God. I was giving birth to the word like Mary. The word was becoming flesh is my life.
The scriptures say in Psalms 126 When the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.
My marriage was completely falling apart and yet God was requiring me to honor him and stay postured before him in intercession regardless of what I could see naturally. It was the most difficult time of my life. I was watching what I wanted the most die and yet God was causing me to dream for better in this place of captivity for my family and my generations to come.
I was pushing pass pain, rejection, pushing pass sorrow, fear, abuse, and pass destruction. I wanted everything God had for me and my generations. Watching the enemy destroy marriages, steal souls through deception and destroy the wealth that God had given my family, broke my heart and brought me to my knees.
You may not know what it will look like nor all that you are giving birth too. You might be carrying your children, a marriage, your generations, and a nation. Sometimes you may feel it is not moving or that it is dead. God is doing a work in you that though it be told you would not believe. Seek him for wisdom and a greater understanding. God wants to draw you closer so you can come into a greater level of intimacy with him. It is in this place where you will conceive and give birth to his prophetic dreams. Ask him today what is his desire for you and your generations? Allow him to turn your captivity so you can be one that dreams again!!!
Proverbs 24:3
3 Through wisdom is a house built; and by understanding it is established:
Psalm 126
126 When the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.
2 Chronicles 20:20
20 And they rose early in the morning, and went forth into the wilderness of Tekoa: and as they went forth, Jehoshaphat stood and said, Hear me, O Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem; Believe in the Lord your God, so shall ye be established; believe his prophets, so shall ye prosper.