What Have You Done?
I will never forget the regret I felt at 17 years old, allowing my mother to take me to an abortion clinic. She insisted I abort my nine-and-a-half-week-old fetus—a baby I had already begun to nurture—because she changed her mind about supporting me. She made the appointment. I was deceived into believing abortion was the answer, but it wasn’t the answer then, and it isn’t now.
I am grateful that Roe v. Wade was overturned, though I know many disagree. Like millions of other young women, I was deceived, much like Eve in the Garden of Eden when Satan lied to her. Abortion is a lie—a theft of God-given authority and dominion over life. God gave Eve a promise that her seed would crush the serpent’s head, yet through abortion, the enemy has stolen the lives of countless children and silenced their futures.
Some women, like me, were deceived. Others, fully aware, chose to disobey. Laws now requiring ultrasounds and listening to a baby’s heartbeat have revealed the undeniable truth: it’s not just tissue—it’s a life.
Statics:
In the U.S., the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) reported approximately 620,000 abortions in 2020 (based on data from 49 reporting areas). The Guttmacher Institute, which collects data independently, estimated about 930,000 abortions in 2020.
The U.S. abortion rate in recent years has been around 14.4 per 1,000 women aged 15–44.
The Development of a 9½-Week-Old Fetus
I discovered in detail how developed my baby was at 9½ weeks:
Development of Fetal Body Parts Before 9½ Weeks
1. Head and Brain
5–6 weeks:
The head is disproportionately large due to rapid brain development.
The brain's three primary regions (forebrain, midbrain, hindbrain) begin forming.
7–8 weeks:
Facial features like nostrils, mouth, and eye pits become distinct.
By 9 weeks:
The brain
This was a life separate from me and just like I didn’t have the right to shed innocent blood, we don’t today through abortion. God wants to right this wrong and give America a chance to repent and get it right in this hour!
God’s Question: "What Have You Done?"
God asked Cain, "Where is your brother?" When Cain denied responsibility, God said, "Your brother’s blood cries out to Me from the ground." Just as He held Cain accountable, God holds us accountable for the innocent blood of aborted babies. He is asking us, “What have you done?”
Through my brokenness and repentance, I found my life’s passion. At 17, I began to understand the weight of my decision. Years later, in 2013, Apostle John Eckhardt prophesied over me, confirming what I already knew:
“You will mother them, prophesy to them, minister deliverance, and love young women. It will take more than spiritual support—you will need resources to help single moms and those who have had abortions and God is going to give you the resources to support them.”
I wanted to create a ministry to support young women—those who had abortions and those who might feel forced to choose it due to lack of resources. In 2023, the vision became clear: my ministry, Ruth’s Vineyard, will serve foster girls only—those in the system and those who have aged out—so they can keep their children with support.
From Pain to Purpose
Out of the brokenness of my own pain, God birthed my life’s passion. Ruth’s Vineyard will be a refuge for foster young women, helping them keep their children and avoid the pain I experienced. This ministry is one of the ways God is restoring what the enemy has stolen and avenging the innocent blood of my child and millions of others.
God sees, remembers, and restores. What the cankerworm and locust have eaten, He will repay. This mission is part of His justice and redemption.
Final Reflections
God is calling us to repent and correct the wrongs of the past. My story is one of redemption and purpose, and I hope to be a voice for young women who feel lost or deceived. Just as God gave Eve the promise that her seed would crush the serpent’s head, we must reclaim our authority and defend the lives of the innocent.
God has not forgotten them, and He has not forgotten us.